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ramblings of a teenage girl

yeah , i know its been a long long time since i've updated anything . hahs . its dead somehow . school has been quite okay . loads of homeworks plus tests coming up . Eng TA1 tmrw . i dare not to say anything . i really hope i'll do well . and cool laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa , i cnnt go Sec 1 Camp ! grrrrrrrr .

; iqah

ohkae . well here goes my entry .

im busy planning for outings now . camps coming up . too bad , i cant go Sec 1 Camp this year . blearghh . im going to miss the councillors and dearest Afiqah . hahs . will update later part of the night .

; iqah(:

seriously , i've been in mood swings again . yesterday was a whole packed day . i lost my mood after recess and felt like crying for no good reason . Mr Kim let us off quite early from the Physics Lab and went home to change to No.4 and prepared the uniform for Sec 1 Meet The Parents Session in the evening . once again , i tried to hold back the tears during training . but , at a point of time , i dragged Liana into the toilet with me and cried all my hearts out . i feel so much better after tht . the day was scorching hot and it really do test my endurance level . long trainings and short breaks . alhamdulillah , i can manage it even though i had a mere headache . went to change to uniforms , took out blazers and off we went for duty . my head was still spinning but searching for Panadol at tht point of time was in vain . the headache just vanished like tht after quite some time . slacked at the back of the hall , taking some pictures with the councillors . the night was dark but it was kindda peaceful . sat down at the staircase at the back of the hall and stared at the full moon , enjoying the breeze . ended up gg home nearly to 11pm .

i think i should not think too much .

; iqah

kae , today is the most bad day . a very bad one . tertumpah iodine solution when i was preparing the slides for the microscope . it didnt spill on the bench , but on my practical book . so slenger of me . next , Ms Lin was angry at us for not drawing the plant cells properly . lol . because of the boys , the whole class kene . grr . next , went to Physics Class late due to the soldings we had during our Bio Lab period . During tht one period , Mr Kim was in a bad mood . scolded us on the silly things tht we do in our assignments . okay , i dont blame him . coz we really did badly . what a day . and headaches are haunting me again .

; iqah

anger management ;

i dont get it . cant you just say it to me nicely ? why must it be at a high tone ? grrrr . i guess my emotions are controlling me again . every little thing makes me angry nowadays . i wonder what happen to me now . hope this wont be happening again . im all stressed up . at least , not now .

iqah`

oh yes . im starting to feel the stress here . or maybe its just too sudden ? lol . but whatever it is , i just feel so terrible .

; iqah

oh well . theres school tomorrow . gonna be a long day . kayy , bye .

; iqah

` get a life ;

``learn from mistakes . realise them . treat each task as a challenge . make every advice as a guidance .

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after loads of reflecting , realising what i've not realised before this , its such a great nightmare to me . i dont understand what i've done at tht moment . maybe an apology wont erase anything tht had happened . only more trust will make a difference . have trust in me , them , us . everyone makes mistakes . i love you all and i miss you too .

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; iqah

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