- PROFILE -

ramblings of a teenage girl

Stability results were very low which suggests you are extremely worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.

Orderliness results were high which suggests you are overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense too often of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun.

Extraversion results were medium which suggests you are moderately talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting.


trait snapshot:

neat freak, organized, worrying, phobic, fears the unknown, irritable, pessimistic, emotionally sensitive, fears chaos, risk averse, fragile, unadventurous, depressed, frequently second guesses self, likes to fit in, does not like to stand out, perfectionist, hard working, does not like to be alone, clingy, dependent, practical, ordinary, cautious, takes precautions, good at saving money, suspicious, heart over mind, busy, altruistic



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oo00 . cool . I LIKE ! (=

to my dearest 2E1 :

im sorry . i cant go to the BBQ at ECP today . hope u guys enjoy yourself and remember these 2 yrs we've gone through together . how i wish i could join you all . all the best for next year guys .

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i wish i can go
cause its our last moments together ;

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IqaH ;

& so , what a day ;

urmmmm , actually im bored lar . ntg much to say . its just tht im still thinking . shall update more later part of the night . thnks . BYE .

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if you should know what im feeling right now ,
if you should know everything
what will you say to me ?

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IqaH ;

` ijustwantyoutotakeresponsibilityforwhatyoudid . justthat . nothingmuch . everyoneishurtandsuffering , especiallyyourlove .

maybe theres gonna be a miracle . prove to us you're not in the wrong . prove to us what we saw werent the truth . prove to us you're not lying . i hate it . very much . you're hurting everyone's heart . your dearest . just , prove me wrong .

IqaH ;

yesterday was a day full of laughters and joy ;

C&C outing is a fun one . shall update abt this soon coz i dont have the pics nw .
& most of the sec 3 books are so tebal and berat . bleargghhh . im nt in any mood right now , so bye .

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and maybe you should continue lying
till noone will ever trust you .
just admit it and we will forgive you , forever .

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IqaH ;

maybe what Abg Amy & Filzah said is true ;

" you're sooooooooo fragile you get sick easily . "

i think i am . im nt strong . please , i wanted to help u out for the last time, if it is . but please , i beg you . im sick .

that song is still in my mind .
that song is killing me .
every now and then , it keeps playing in my mind .
thank you . very much .

& heres the Shooting Competition Results ;

JUNYUAN BOYS : OVERALL CHAMPION FOR BOYS UNIT
JUNYUAN GIRLS : 2ND OVERALL CHAMPION FOR GIRLS UNIT

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PART A GIRLS TEAM : 2nd
Individual Best Shooter : 10th Placing , Shahirah

PART B GIRLS TEAM : 4th
Individual Best Shooter : 5th Placing , LCP Siti Nur Afiqah ; 3rd Placing , LCP Aidilin Fitri

Part C GIRLS TEAM : CHAMPION
Individual Best Shooter : 1st Placing , SSGT Fatin Hanani

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SOOOO , everyone did well . congrats to all . INSYA ALLAH , we can beat the CRESCENT GIRLS` SCHOOL next year ;


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IqaH ;

Dear God ,

Please give me a convincing answer soon . I need it so much now .

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results for the class are out . first look , was quite okay with it . but , a sudden feeling of sad and dissapointed when Filzah & Liana are nt in E4 as well . i was hoping REAL BAD to be in the same class with Filzah . i really feel tht i need her all along now . Liana was supposed to get the same as me , but yea , she gt to E2 . not all tht we've planned turned out what we've ALWAYS wanted . maybe i'll do well in Pure Sciences than Literature . maybe theres a reason behind it .

i feel so jdfhbjebvferuifhncr , now . Literature , Pure Sciences . its making me go crazy . godd , please . & im so nt in the mood to go work anymore . it just makes my holiday more sucking lah . SERIOUSLY ! im sorry for any offensive words bt WORK stress me out like jdabcfjbvjdfv OKAYY !

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i think i should let you go
i think im sacrificing you , my love
im sorry
but my heart wont leave you .

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Love ,
[ IqaH ]

P.S : there ntg abt LOVE . dont misunderstand it . i need FILA and Filzah now .

kayy , im sick again . bleargghh . & im gg work tmrw till 3 then , rush home to get changed to go to my uncle's house . shall be lethargic by then . most probably overnighting at my uncle/aunty house . so cnnt update for the nxt two days . Sunday will be the majlis kawin . cnfrm reach home late . aiyooo~ .

im in for the shooting competition this cmg Monday . hope to get something for the unit . atleast , most of us . im hoping for the Part A's too . especially Insyirah(: .

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i promise to push myself to the limit and lead . no matter what happens , everyone's here to help each other . everyone makes mistakes and learn from every one of it . no grudges , talking behind one another . we're still a one big family after all . i love you all so much .

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Love ,
[ IqaH ]


P.S : I Love You . You Love Me . We are happy family(:

whoaa . fever . running nose . headaches . body aching . cough . BLEARGGHH !

nk pegi keje tk ?

AHHHHHHHH ! pfffttt .

1/2 more hr to decide .
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Love ,
[ IqaH ]

` i need my Strepsils NOW ~ ;


i think i've dump it somewhere inside my bag and i dont knw where is it now . my throat's getting more and more painful . been coughing a lot today . STREPSILS , i need youu now !

work have been quite tiring . most of the time i'll be cleaning the whole restaurant myself . like dfhjldfknvefnvfnv , lahh kn . went home with Liana and took 8 , stopped opposite 141 dere [ or near the Tampines Primary ] , to meet Eenaa . chat with her till 34 came . and this bloody mosquito , go suck my blood . like dcbjkdbcfjvbdfjvbfjf sehh ! spoil mood only . & nt fair , Eenaa tk kene gigit nyamuk . pfffttt . hah . now , i officially hate mosquitos like many2 gitu ! ahhhh ! tkder keje lain lah ni mosquito . go suck other ppl blood lah . pffffttt . -.-


Love ,
[ IqaH ]

just bear with the new skin . tk kuase lg nk edit . biler dh ader mood , baru edit2 lg(:

Love ,
[ IqaH ]

` shouldn't be able to post anything . wait till i have a day off ;

whoaa , im gg off to work in an hour time . worst still i think the fever is cmg back again . & oh , seriously , im feeling scared for don't know what reasons . maybe this work thingy is realy scaring me . but on the other hand , it will be a good experience though . lets hope , tk byk org attack Tampines East CC nari .
=p

Love ,
[ IqaH ]

` blearrgghh , im sickk ;


shouldn't have walked in the rain just now . urghh . now i think im going to have fever soon . went to clinic to get the typhoid injection . it was kinda fast and pain . how i hate injections . took 8 home and otw back in the bus , saw my primary school building . awww , how i miss the ppl there . (:
turun bas terus hujan makin lebat . dh lah tk bwk payung . -.-
thts why i feel so sick now , thnks to the rain .


i find my blogskin very plain and boringg . gonna chnge it soon . (:


& im starting work tmrw ! see you all at Tampines East CC(:


Love ,
[ IqaH ]

randomm lahh, okehh ;














& thts Siti Nur Afiqah





















& thts Siti Nur Rafidah























& thts Muhammad Zulhusni



















& thts Muhammad Zulhilmi











& thts Siti Nur Jannah(:




Love ,
[ IqaH ]

P.S : nt in any order (:

& tell me how , help me say the words out loud ;


ahhhh , kae . im all tensed up . tmrw is the interview for work . aiyooo~ . i was posted to TECC with Liana while Fiqa , Val & Kerrie were posted to TMall . gg to teman Fiqa for the interview at 2pm tmrw , then have to rush off to my interview tht is at 4pm . if i get through this thing , you all gg to see me work in Tampines East CC`s McDonalds . (=
but dont laugh at me tauu . =pp


Love ,
[ IqaH ]


P.S : nw , im addicted to Eenaa's PSP . tempting lah beb . dreammmm on in getting one .

& dushh , oh go away ;

blogging is the best lahh . online games are just so boringg . blearggh . soon , blogging will be set aside coz work attachment is ard the corner . working will be my love by then . k lah , BYE .


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hey sweetheart ,
goodbye ;

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Love ,
[ IqaH ]

& here we go ;

eh , i changed my mind not to update about today lah , can ? im so lazyy and tired and sleepy . hahs , the latest should be by tmrw . i guess .

can i have a perfect holiday ? i dont seem to have one ; meetings and workshops and interviews and whatsoever tht are related to this . i've been gg to school almost everyday of the week if not , its going to be some other things tht just came up . ohh , im so fill-in-the-blanks . due to the first shooting practice at Yishun Safra , my body is aching like fill-in-the-blanks . but did quite okay as it had been a very longg time since i've shoot IMT . scored 19/30 for the snap target ; supported/unsupported . the best grp size i've got so far was only 7cm . pfftt . the nxt training will be on the 14th . yessa !(:


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the clouds seem to darkened ,
when you said we were meant for each other .
blearggh

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Love ,
[ IqaH ]

& ohh , im bored so decided to do a short post ;

im tired but had fun with the ppl who went to Yishun Safra today . shall update about this later when i've done my maghrib prayer & received the pictures . and , i eat a lot today .
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Love ,
[ IqaH ]

& im learning to fall ;

ahhh . another day full of ( fill-in-the-blanks ) . hee` . tmrw gt the peer support thing . hope its gonna be fun .

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im learning to fall ,
i can't hardly breathe .
when im going down ,
don't worry about me .

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Love ,
[ IqaH ]

& third post for the day ;


ohh , gawd . im still feeling awful here . bored to the max & i swear im cursing . been in mood swings nowadays & still i can't figure out what has been bothering me . i don't want to meet the familiar faces other than FILA . i want to get out from this misery . no wait . i NEED to get out from this misery . go away lahh . u're bothering me , you know . i think i need to make a drastic decision . but i need to hear opinions from bestfriends . coz i dont want to make mistakes . i want a change . but i dont know if what im doing is right . god knows what im feeling .

ohh yes . i've learnt how to cook . atleast ard 5 dishes . thnks to mummy & me , who made an effort to stay at home rather than wasting my time outside . yea right uhh , iqah . been doing the household chores till i get very bored & fed-up , sometimes . those who're looking for part-time maids , consider me lah , can ? i want to work . hee .

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above all reasons ,
i need a break .

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Love ,
[ IqaH ]

can i end this nightmare of mine ,
and run away as far as i want ?


Love ,
[ IqaH ]

& okayy , lets update on Camp Feast ;


1st Day :

met Kak Shikin when i was on the way to school . most of the ncc girls were outside the gate when i came . went in & settled down . while waiting for the bus , SSgt Shikin asked for a volunteer to become the IC . i was the only one raising up my hand . i was like paiseyy already . & soo , terpakse jgk jd IC . i had the responsibility to take care of everyone during the camp . blablabla , went up the bus & all of a sudden , a mixed feeling of excited and scared overwhelmed me . and tht result to a mere headache plus slight fever . reached HQ & put our bulky bags at the bunk . i was instructed to go to Platoon 4 , together with Ferina and Niiena . first look at the Platoon , i thought they were a bunch of boring ppl . but as the time goes by , we began to laugh & joke among ourselves . the icebreaking session was short and kind of boring . the PC , APC & OC came up with games , but the people in the platoon made it quite plain . they didn't really were into it . after the icebreaking session , we were supposed to come up with a name for the platoon , but we haven't decide on one . at the MPH , one of the Sirs asked Platoon 4 for our name & Syafiq , being the most sporting guy in the platoon , just blurted out the most unique but silliest name ; GangBang .
went to try out the Low Element tht requires teamwork & good communication skills . had real fun there & learned a few learning points . had lunch at ard 12pm , but i didn't finish the food coz i was quite full . tried out rock climbing but did it halfway though . but didn't get to try out the rappelling station coz of bad weather . after the rain recided , went to Archery station and im starting to feel tired . did the Archery anyhow & went to have early dinner . as expected , i didn't finish the food , again . collected the Camp Feast t-shirt & went to bunk to get ready for Camp Feast Night . the GangBangs did a last minute preparations for Camp Feast night . everyone was like very nervous and cracking their heads to come up with an item . Sir Kamarul was like giving us motivations before the Camp Feast night start , & when he shouted 'GangBang Unite' , we didnt respond to him . Instead , we laugh . hee ~
Syafiq & Ferina were the most sporting in the Platoon . they did a catwalk & did pole dancing . laughed my hearts out . not forgetting , Sir Matiin . he's the funniest CLT during the camp & tht makes the camp more livelier .
something happened to Filzah after Camp Feast night . consoled her as i feel responsible to take care of every Junyuan Girls at the camp . i had difficulty sleeping as theres some disturbance here and there .

2nd Day :

had PT in the morning & i didn't have appetite for breakfast . next , went to flying fox station & im the first girl to go . serious sehh , VERY SCARY . hee , but i feel like doing it again . supposed to go to Paintball station but didn't . Abg Amy & Sir Ravi cracked a few lame jokes & it was really LAME lahh . most of the jokes Abg Amy told , i knw already coz he told me at home . hee ~
spent most of the time at Archery station & it was scorching hot . managed to endure & went to have lunch . bla3 . packed my things & did MOC . i did the MOC anyhow due to the lack of sleep . & everyone parted after receiving their pictures & certificates . how i wish tht moment wont come . hope to see them again next year during Spec Course .


& i really miss my GangBangers , Sir Ravi & Sir Kamarul(:


Love ,
[ IqaH ]

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