- PROFILE -

ramblings of a teenage girl

` & I have learn a l0t 0f things fr0m the IP Pr0t0c0l W0rksh0p . I think its gg t0 w0rk 0ut t0 change my attitute & s0lve my pr0blems .



. lalalala . as y0u can see , im a bit crazy these days . and 0hh , just ign0re me . hah . theres a l0t 0f things gg 0n . and s0me 0f the things ARE real fun . because i havent g0ne thr0ugh these THINGS ever bef0re . AND its happening n0w . 0hh GREAT . but then , y0u see , im n0t tt str0ng enuff t0 handle things PERFECTLY . haha . but still , i can laugh , smile and make j0kes ard . im just trying t0 hide whats inside me , really .



. i cry . & an0ther minute , i'll be laughing like a crazy pers0n . weird . i knw . & i dunn0e whats happening t0 me recently . 0kayy n0w EVERYTHING's 0ver . but i shud say . im nt 0ver it . and s0 , fr0m y0ur REACTI0NS , i can tell y0u're 0ver me ? fine . 0r 0r . y0u angry at me 0r wads0ever . i knw tt its kind 0f a diff state ur in . and d0nt think tt ur al0ne . and im the 0ne wh0 has decide . n0t y0u . & im fcg the c0nsequences . 0f every0ne blaming me and saying me all kinds 0f things . and fr0m ur reacti0ns als0 , i can tell y0ur hating me ? nahh . i d0nt need the answer . i just need y0ur understanding t0 understand the situation im in . nvm if u cnnt . furtherm0re , im just a BUSTARD t0 y0u .

L0ve ,

Iqah .


Kesilapanku Keegoanmu
by Siti Nurhaliza

besar kesilapanku, besar lagi kesilapanmu
hampa yang kau rasakan, hampa lagi perasaanku
kau cuba menyatakan aku membuat kesilapan
yang tak mungkin kau maafkan lagi
kutak mungkin kau perlu disisi

besar kesalahanku, besar lagi keegoanmu
berkali ku beri alasan, berkali-kali kau menolaknya
kau inginku menyalakan diri ini bagai lilin
dan terbakar oleh perbuatanmu

suasana sepi kini menambahkan hening di dalam hatiku
mengadil sikapmu, biar di jiwamu kutelah tiada
di waktu begini diusik kenangan silam yang bertandang
lalu kubiarkan, ia menabahkan hati ini

* kekasihku cukup engkau buatku begini
luka ini usah engkau berdarahkan kembali
aku masih cinta padamu, aku masih setia padamu
kembalilah engkau kepadaku seperti dahulu

di dalam rindu ku menangis, dalam kalbu ku terasa
teringatmu dikala derita yang memisahkan kita
di dalam sendu ku berseru, yang terukir dalam hatiku
kekasih bukalah pintu untuk sekali ini

(ulang dari *)

aku cinta kepadamu

besar kesilapanku, besar lagi kesilapanmu
hampa yang kau rasakan, hampa lagi perasaanku
kau cuba menyatakan aku membuat kesilapan
yang tak mungkin kau maafkan lagi
kutak mungkin kau perlukan lagi
disisi.....

` & i've g0tten my shades already .

hell0 ppl . im just gg t0 talk abt t0day . i cant sleep last night s0 i slept at ard 6-8 in the m0rning . SMS-ed Liana tt i cann0t meet him and slept back . & my mum rply-ed f0r me . i dunn0e wad happen t0 my eyes . ign0re it . tts why i need wear shades . (:

went 0ut with mum t0 g0 t0 RP t0 take my br0's f0rm . halfway thr0ugh the j0urney , br0 called and said tt the f0rm's nt ready yet . s0 we decided t0 g0 t0 Kak Syahidah's h0use t0 see the new-b0rn baby . blablabla . t0ok 168 h0me but there was a traffic jam during the j0urney due t0 an accident . i slept . reached h0me at abt 7.30pm . and here i am updating my bl0g .

. im tired and sleepy . but i cant sleep tt why . haix . g0d knws why . & last 0f all gd luck t0 the Sec 3 NCC Cadets wh0 are gg t0 Spec C0urse tmrw . and 0h . my br0 has set 0ff t0 HQ earlier during the day . and the h0use gg t0 be empty . ):

` & i th0ught im just a burden . i d0nt want t0 stress y0u 0ut m0re .




` Carnati0ns is a L0VE ! .

hello ppl ! i havent update l0ng enuff already . & here i am . (: `whee . im nt gg talk abt my results . they are a l0t BAD than last year . im just gg w0rk hard fer the rest 0f the year . (:

i went t0 F0ur Seas0ns H0tel last Saturday fer s0me kind 0f 0ccasi0n . i had a VERY fun time there . (:
and t0o bad . i didnt take ph0t0s there . ):
the t0ilet was like damn nice , big . hah . and i ate quite a l0t . heh . the f0ods were all hell nice . (:
i was treated like a princess there . haha . * cheyy . =p * & i g0t a b0uquet 0f Carnati0ns . they were NICE and BEAUTIFUL fl0wers . i s0 l0ve them ;)

& my siblings are all having camps starting this Wednesday . im just g0ing t0 have a 1 day c0urse f0r the SC's . t0o bad . Kak Fyda gg fer her sch0ol camp and Abg Amy gg fer the Spec C0urse . and im left with my irritating lil br0 at h0me .=p

my schedule this June H0lidays aren't tt packed either . heres the schedule . (:

30th May - IP Pr0t0c0l Thingy .
3rd June - G0ing fer Fiqa's Sis Wedding and gg t0 my kakak sedare h0use .
5th June - C & C Department 0uting .
9th June - Fiqa's B'dae
16th June t0 19 June - H0liday at KL
17th June - Insyirah's B'dae ( im nt gg )
20th June - SC Meeting

& thats all i guess . im l0oking f0rward t0 my h0liday ! . (:

. Siti Nur Afiqah . Iqah . 18 m0re days . Miss All 0f Y0u .

` im b0red .

hell0 ppl . im in sch0ol n0w . sempat update bl0g . heh . nvm . im just s0 b0red . yea . and s0 . t0 ppl . im n0t gg update my bl0g till im free enuff kayy . hah . i g0t this ' pr0ject ' g0ing 0n . heh . its a secret . k lahh . buhbye .

. Siti Nur Afiqah . Iqah . L0ve l0ve All . Thank Y0u .

` hell0 hell0 and hell0 .

i missed dance practice t0day . ))= . haix . i dunn0e lahh .i really feel ... nvm . im just tired . im lazy t0 bl0g . and t0 th0se ppl kt MSN . s0rry if i didnt rply ur msgs . im n0t in the m0od . thanks . bye .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABG AMY & FILZAH !

I L0VE L0VE Y0U TW0 !! . (:

` Updates fer t0day will be up at night ! Peace . (:

Ready For You - H00bastank

Go on, make me feel it's useless
When in fact it's you that need to have me near
So now, keep me at safe distance
And with a little persistence
I'll make it crystal clear

That I'll be around
Only if you want me to
Be there by your side
I'm ready for you
So don't be afraid
Cause I know what you're going through
So when you think it's time
I'm ready for you

Now you seem to be content with
A one sided friendship
With you I've got to chase
Slow down
So I can smell the roses
But the road you've chose
Is crooked and unpaved
(My tires are spinning but to no avail)

But I'll be around
Only if you want me to
Be there by your side
I'm ready for you
So don't be afraid
Cause I know what you're going through
When you think it's time
I'm ready for you
I'm ready for you

And I'll be around
Only if you want me to
Be there by your side
I'm ready for you
So don't be afraid
Cause I know what you're going through
So when you think it's time
I'm ready for you

I'll be around
Only if you want me to
Be there by your side
I'm ready for you
Don't be afraid
Cause I know what you're going through
So when you think it's time
I'm ready for you
I'm ready for you
I'm ready for you

` headache is a HATE !

wheeehuu ! im back . hah . its been like a few weeks i've n0t been updating . s0 yeah . here i am after the exams . (:

life's been quite n0rmal i guess . Mrs Lim had not been c0ming t0 sch0ol and the class is already in tr0uble . * sad * hmm . and yeah . h0pe All0y get well s0on with his n0se . hah .

theres quite a l0t 0f ppl didnt c0me sch0ol t0day . that was n0t sh0cking at all . i , t0o , planned n0t t0 g0 t0 sch0ol . hah . * naughty girl . (; * but actually i g0t valid reas0n lahh . i w0ke up and g0t a VERY BAD headache . arggh . but did g0 sch0ol th0ugh . heesh .

my schedule f0r this week and next week is very packed i guess . DanceFl0or and all . and and ! im g0ing fer h0liday this June . `wee . its like ages since we've g0ne f0r a holiday . (:

and i think my bl0g's quite b0ring uhh with0ut a s0ng . after this i put up this s0ng ya . and t0m0rr0w's FRIDAY . hah . ` yay yay ! . hah . i s0 l0ve weekends . 0kies ppl . till here .

. Siti Nur Afiqah . Iqah . HATE Y0U , HEADACHE ! . and 0ut i g0 .

` lalalala .

im damn scared but still i can relax . wahaha . im d0wn with a slight fever n0w . but i dun care . im g0ing study till m0rning ! * cheyy * hmm . & i havent update f0r quite a l0ng time already . s0rry ppl . exams starting already ! g0t t0 revise and all kinds 0f things . (:

eng paper 2 tmrw . heesh . IM READY ! cheyy . cm betul . but wadever it is . english the best lah beb . hah . but im weak in * secret * . hah . i'll try my best tmrw !

g0t a l0t 0f things t0 be d0ne . s0 i'll st0p here !

P.S : Any0ne want g0 watch Spiderman 3 again with me ? hah . and and ! i NEED ppl t0 help me with s0me things . thanks .

. Siti Nur Afiqah . Iqah . L0ve ALL . Buhbye .

`` & i dunwant t0 g0 t0 sch0ol . im stressed up ! . damn .

& im s0 s0rry kak Natiara ! haha . trluper nk link tadi . i know i missed s0me0ne's link but i dunn0e wh0 . haha . t0o many things in mind . i guess .

Befrienders Pr0gramme t0m0rr0w . im g0ing stayback till 4.00pm . damn . i am still n0t in the m0od t0 g0 sch0ol . DnT is during the first peri0d 0f the day . and 0h please ! i want Mr L0h and Mrs Lim t0 start my day well ! * pray hard ... FINISH ! * hah . that was s0 lame . nvm . and 0f c0urse i missed Maths less0n 0n M0nday . and i dunn0e whats g0ing 0n . and 0f c0urse Maths period is always bef0re recess =.= . Ms Hidaya Ms Hidaya ! im waiting f0r y0ur SMS . hah . nvm . i can see y0u t0m0rr0w . 4 PERIODS sum0re . wh0ahh . s0metimes its kinda b0red t0 see the same teacher g0ing in again f0r an0ther subject . but i guess Ms Hidaya made it fun and a l00king-f0rward class f0r 2E1 . (:

im s0 n0t ready f0r Science Test f0r Chapter 4 . but im lucky enuff . theres n0 Science less0n t0m0rr0w ! `wee . and and ! i think im g0ing sleep during Geography less0n . ((:

im g0ing 0ff early t0m0rr0w ! ` wee . c0z g0t the Befrienders thingy . lets h0pe theres PIZZA ! hah . and we've g0t presents f0r 0ur FRIENDS ! ` wee ! cant wait t0 see them ! .

and can i leave y0u with s0me qu0tes ? hah . s0 enj0y ppl ! see ya t0m0rr0w ! and and ! im g0ing give 0ut s0mething t0 ppl t0m0rr0w ! just be nice and friendly t0 me ! hah .
*Reminder : While St0ck Lasts ! hah .*

. & Friendship marks a life even more deeply than love. Love risks degenerating into obsession, friendship is never anything but sharing.

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